Saturday, November 15, 2014
I am actually happy with the direction my life is going right now. I haven't always been able to say that, and I may have times in the future where I won't be able to again. But for now, I am happy. I enjoy teaching, I enjoy time with my family, and for the first time in a long time I feel like my art skills are starting to show improvement again. That is a good feeling. I am happy to be going back to the basics more and feel that it is a good time for it.
I have been keeping up with my goal to try and sketch everyday, and that is causing most of the improvement. I am also working on larger drawings again and am finally starting to find some of the line work and draftsmanship that I was looking for when I started this journey into art 16 years ago with my associate degree.
I still have moments of trepidation as an artist. I start a project and wonder "Can I really do what I am about to try and do again?" But, slowly, I am gaining more confidence and despite the fear at the start of each project I am getting better about working through it. I have a feeling that I will be akin to Hokusai. Everything I do before 70 won't be worth bothering about, but by 100 I might finally be the artist I want to be.
Whether I ever become the artist I want to be, I at least am feeling a sense of improvement. Keep checking back, and I will do my best to keep posting what progress I make.